With a cigarette in hand, and a beer controlling the other, it is hard for me to explain the emotions I feel, especially since I have put my beer down in order to type this little bit of input. It has been a hard ride over the last few months. Before now, my writing was easy, natural, and full of potential. Now, I have become lazy, lathargic, and unfocused, and the work I have created whilst I have been in such a disastrous present, my future has never looked more bleak. However, there is always a way out into the sunshine. It is the way I show my characters in all of my works, and it is the way my unconscious mind shows myself when I am asleep. It is the silver lining found on every dark rain cloud. It is my savior, my end, and my beginning. To recognize both, to understand both, and to relive it day in and day out without hesitation, regret, or guilt. It is my life; the only one I get, even if you believe in reincarnation. It is a nice thought, reincarnation, but by popular belief, you still forget everything. The lives you have experienced before and after this one, you don't ever really remember, you just think of the possibility. What-ifs seem fairly incredulous when you know that even if it did exist, you wouldn't remember anyway. It's almost sad, really. I feel and have always felt as if my day, be it today or tomorrow, is just one more step into my own future and the lives I will affect along the way. What if it were different? There I go with what-ifs again. I almost forgot, what-ifs do not matter. What matters is what you do with what you are given, what you find most precious, and what you find irrelevant. Some people tend to act on that which is irrelevant, but it may be the only thing that keeps people sane. If you acted solely on the person you have grown to be, the virtues you have created as your own, and treasured the irrelevant bullshit, you wouldn't be in the wrong, you would naturally be defined as human. It is the shortcomings that create us, and the life we live individually that will end us.
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