“She was grown up; she was twenty-nine! It was only recently that she’d been walking home from the hairdresser’s, feeling gorgeous, and a gaggle of teenage girls walked by, and the sound of their strident giggles made her send a message back through time to her fourteen-year-old self: “Don’t worry, it all works out. You get a personality, you get a job, you work out what to do with your hair, and you get a boy who thinks you’re beautiful.” She’d felt so together, as if all the teenage angst and the failed relationships before Nick had all been part of a perfectly acceptable plan that was leading to this moment, when she would be twenty-nine years old and everything would finally be just as it should be.” -ALICE LOVE / WHAT ALICE FORGOT (LIANE MORIARTY) Now I'm just waiting on the boy who thinks I'm beautiful. He'll make me laugh. He'll talk to me, tell me everything about his day, and then ask me about mine. He'll act like he's tough when he's out with his friends, but then at the mention of my name, he'll be kind and sweet. He'll hold me close and tell me he loves me, and I'll hold him just as tight and remind myself how lucky I am, but then, so will he. We'll both be so appreciative that we could love someone as much as we love each other, and we'll always believe that we love each other more than the other, but then secretly, we'll know the truth. He might keep his feelings to himself, most of the time, but when things get crazy, he'll let himself be vulnerable in front of me. And no matter how many times we fight or we walk away, he'll still hold me when I'm crying. He'll tell me everything will be okay, because he really believes it will be. He'll have conviction and certainty. And so will I. I'll know and understand him, just like he will me. He'll trust me and understand me. He'll be proud of me, and he'll tell me when he knows I need to hear it. He'll let me be myself, and he'll stand by in group of people watching me tell a story or hear my conversation and smile so wide that other people will notice. Our life together will be easy because we love each other easy. We'll fight like other couples, but it will be as simple as a couple of hours apart or in separate rooms, and then a quick hug and an apology, and maybe even a compromise. We'll work together, because in the end, we'll know that we can get through it. And after a long day at work, we'll both come home to the solace that is our place and each other, and we'll do the dishes together, or make dinner, or order in. We'll relax in each other's arms and watch something new on TV. And we'll get ready for bed, we'll lay down together, hear the soft sounds of breathing, and we'll say good night and say "I love you" only to wake up the next morning with one of us touching the other. Rolling over in our sleep and not even knowing it. A hand over the chest, or a leg draped over a hip. “Love to my way of thinking, is the emotion one feels when they meet someone who makes them be what they want to be. We feel love toward someone who shows us the light, who pushes us to become what we have always wanted to become but may have never realized. We love the person who makes us love ourselves.” -ANGELICA SHELTON BELANOV / UNDER THE BLOOD RED MOON (MINA HEPSEN) |
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